Fear is crippling and will hold us back. I fear flying but someday I may just do it. When I do I hope I’m with friends that know my fear. This way I can be comfortable being my scary self.
To conquer fear one must overcome the fear. I get those butterflies flipping and twisting in my belly every time I’m about to do something that makes me nervous. However over time I’ve learned to do whatever it is with my eyes wide open. After I complete what I feared I always learn it wasn’t as scary as I thought.
When I have to go to the doctor’s office and have a medical test or procedure done, I work myself into a frenzy, I’m filled with so much fear and worry that I have difficulty sleeping the night before. When I finally do the test, it’s usually easy and painless. Or I could handle it with no problem. Back when I worked I would have to stand in front of strangers to give orientations I would be nervous but I would always smile and someone in the crowd would always smile back. This made it easy and eventually when I had to stand in front of strangers on a stage I would get this adrenaline rush and it felt good. I gave speeches, presentations and these orientations for twenty years, it became second nature. Having to fire someone, walk through a crowd of stranger and be the voice of reason in a confrontational situation. I’ve done it all and nothing bad has ever happened. No one laughed at me or said things that were inappropriate. I always persevered.
Like this past Saturday at the Lupus walk. I was nervous about going there by myself and mingle among strangers. I took my camera but I wasn’t sure if I was going to take any photos but I did. In fact now I wish I interviewed some of the folk I photographed.
So as I said fear is crippling and we are the ones who cripple ourselves. I use to be shy now I’m one of those pains in the ass folks that talk to you when you want peace and quiet. I’m the one who will get up in a crowded room and ask the question everyone was thinking.
It was Franklin D. Roosevelt that said, “We have nothing to fear except fear itself.” It’s true.
Well if I was in a bank that was being robbed I’ll lie on the floor and keep quiet because I will fear those goons with guns. Not fearing them is stupid.
©Kimberly Wilhelmina Floria 4/7/14