through the window of my past
rains of melancholy smiles
fill my eyes with joy
tickling me with laughter
☼
I shiver in sadness
as I tour the memories
of my past
on this secluded quest
seeking guidance
into my future
where strength will rule
and release me
from my mental bondage
☼
free to strive for perfection
in a defective world
to seek light to shine
upon darkness
the strength to weigh
the balance of
positive and negative
☼
an aura invaded me
with streams of false emotions
destroying with mountains of
words and trickery
☼
but now
☼
there’s a glow
in the center of existence
it’s mysterious
and unknown
ruling my thoughts
giving life to my dreams
the judge and jury
of my mental court
releasing me from this bondage
I’m going to smile away sorrow
and reward myself with a better day
give that selfish ego a beat down
and find that which I’ve searched for
©Kimberly Wilhelmina Floria 8/19/15
silentlyheardonce 
Expectations are often tricky to master, as ‘they’ like to master us. When I was growing up I often did not have high expectations of myself, since I was not praised. While Ego can be a regrettable task master. I thing some goals are needed in order to enjoy the rainbow – knowing that their most likely is not a pot of gold at the end has never stopped some from trying to get there. Taking care of the self can be rewarding, and hopefully brings us closer to the peace we seek.
True the taking car of ourselves is definitely a step in the right direction especially when your health is failing more and more everyday.
Enjoy everyday. Be as healthy as you can be.
How we chew over our past, ponder the future, then with luck return the the present and resolve to follow a positive course of action. Well described and wrapped into a gentle hint of advice. 🙂
🙂 Thank you kind sir.
i love the poem Kimberly! Hugs!
Thank you Wendell I appreciate your visit and comment.
Defective world… Seeking perfection. Wise. Wise. Beautiful!
Thank you much.
“Free to strive for perfection in a defective world.” Well said.
Thank you.
Loving your new makeover…
And your poignant words… I too would get caught within the ‘trickery’ of the past.. Now I hope I am learning to master it stays in the past.. As I embrace only the Now of my tomorrows 🙂 Lovely Poem Kim..
Have a wonderful Wednesday
Sue
Thanks Sue. You too have a wonderful Wednesday.